I had a rough day on Tuesday... a very rough day. In addition to having a rough day, by the time I left work, it was nearly 7pm, and the last thing I wanted to do was cook dinner when I got home.
The boi said let's go grab something to eat - pick it up, come back home, eat and relax... and that sounded like Heaven...
I had Taco Bell and ice cream from UDF. And I felt so much guilt when I got done eating. The ironic thing is I felt ashamed of myself while eating... and knew I should have chosen differently even before I ate... but I still ate the food. There was a part of me that knew it would taste delicious. I can count on one hand how many times I've had Taco Bell in the last 3 years. It's not a common occurrence... but I was making changes in my life! I wasn't suppose to eat to satisfy my emotional discontent.
I knew in my heart it wouldn't wipe away the irritations of Tuesday afternoon... but I felt mentally and emotionally drained to the point of almost physical exhaustion. This was the first time that I actually thought through my actions before I took a bite... so I know I'm making progress. But why did I choose the convenient route? Why couldn't I whip up something healthy?
Like a light bulb going off, I realized that I need to meal plan. I need healthy pre-made frozen meals ready to go when days like Tuesday happen. I can't continue to mess up and attempt to excuse-away my poor decisions.
Wednesday was better on all fronts. I even went for a long walk after work with my two favorites - Daisy and the boi.
Thursday is starting off phenomenally as well. I work late tonight, so I had time to wake up, stretch, play with Daisy, and hit up my new gym. There were a few awkward moments trying to navigate around, but all new places take a visit or two to work out the kinks. I'm leaving for work a little early this afternoon so that I can walk and grab a smoothie at lunch time with an aunt - so that will be additional steps and additional calories burned. Not to mention a healthy choice for lunch.
Sayonara, Taco Bell and my guilty feelings from Tuesday. I'm learning and adapting, and I can't stop myself from moving forward.
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